Dec 6, 2010

It's mine so I have the rights to messing up

Unstoppable. Unreachable.
Everything seems like it. I ain't what I wanna do. And each change is unstoppable so do unreachable.

Ini Senin lhoo, mama ayah alhamdulillah sudah kembali ke Indonesia dan itu artinya gue kambali ke rumah juga. How happy. How awesome and terrific. Gue kangen rumah dan isinya beserta para penghuni rumah, makhluk apapun itu. Gue kangen Portscha dan gue kangen konten yang ada pada dirinya. Gue kangen kamar mandi dan shower yang besar tapi tidak deras. Gue cuma kangen dan yang gue butuhin adalah kembali. So, here I am!

Senangnya bisa kembali. Remember my post that related with ' SELF-replacement ' ? I hope my old would back too. Okay, it's not good to type each word here cause I'm listening to Oh My Love - John Lennon. God, it's truly touchy and makes me stuck here nothing to type.

Ehm, anyway gue sedang bergejolak.
Apa banget ya, ya banget apa. Gue ngerasa serba enak tapi serba salah. Ini bukan gue, bukan Hayah Afifah, bukan Afi. Bukan. Rasanya bedaaaaaa banget. Afi gak se-rude ini, percaya deh! Afi masih ngerti perasaan orang lain. While I'm not! Siapa yang peduli coba? Gue emang rese tapi gak gini juga. Demi apapun gue bukan Afi yang itu, tapi yang satunya lagi! jangan ketuker ya guys.

I talk shouldn't-said-words.
I mock everyone.
I shout if I'm mad.
I destroy something just for fun.
I give a fake smile.
I pinch and punch.
Dare?
and after a long rush-minded I found the answer. I'm a teenager. It's perfectly normal based on the article I read. So messed up, so slut!

" a fake smile is better than a fake word"
" what you need is only a destruction, no more improvement"
" Life is what you see, not what you think. so don't ever think about the next you "

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anyway another mess up here, I made some pics yeah just for fun and have no artistic thing. Powerade by Paint


bye♥
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