It could be called as, 'lagi pengen nangis banget'.
Gue gak yakin lagi kenapa. Mungkin quotation yang menyebutkan 'ketika lo tertawa lepas, inget bahwa setelahnya lo bisa nangis dan ya, nangis'. Gue abis main dari rumah Prastika sama Ayusuwar dan Nadiah. Ketawa, I can say it as 'puas banget'. Hari ini juga gue bisa dibilang berbahagia karena UTS Fisika gue nilainya tidak diawali dengan angka 3. Tapi 7. Alhamdulillah 72, remedial tapi itu diluar asumsi. 2 kali lipat dari asumsi.
Dan karena gue punya modem baru gue akhirnya buka facebook. Ya, buka foto dan.........galau segalau-galaunya. Nemuin foto-foto beberapa bulan lalu, foto yang ada Aisah-nya. Aisah mungil. Alhasil kangen Aisah banget-bangetan sampe pengen nangis tapi harus tahan. Tadi puncaknya pas lagi liat foto sambil denger lagu In a Rush and to make it stop on halfway terpaksa gue ganti lagunya jadi Yusuke the Ghost, yaitu lagu alarm gue. Gue berharap dengan nyetel lagu itu gue jadi gak sedih lagi, tapi......................ini bisa dibilang 'jadi lebih parah'.
Gatau kenapa :|
Beneran kangen.
Parah.
Gak boleh nangis.
Mainly to be remembered.
You can't wish you were in the latest second.
You can't sleep when you find it hard to stop crying.
You can't even change what have been through.
You can't just let yourself down.
You can't play the feeling of your own.
You can't find it right what should you do when everything seems wrong.
You can't just giving up and choking on your words.
You can't sing when you're falling into pieces. So deeply down.
You can't bet that rain will wash it away. Fairy tale isn't allow on this somehow-truth rule.
I'm afraid of what I feel. I need the times to heal.
Galau yah? Cukup. I even hard to find the labels for this post so I decided to put nothing on it.
bye♥
