I release

You should have just helped me get things done together, such as answering question that goes "why it hurts me so much listening to a Carpenters song?". You could have responded to it and asked me which song I was talking about. And then I would have just opened Youtube and typed "love me for what i am".

That would be the damn song.

Those would be the exact lines I wanted you to reflect, to learn, to be offended by.

You should have felt offended. A total offensive me would look you right in the eyes and ask for explanations.

Bad I would, still, I might be just begging you to stop wanting me cause we cannot be designed.

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Even when you already had a new beginning, I am still haunted by the things I could have said to you. As you appeared on my dreams, always looking mad at me. Last but not least, I want to admit that you destroyed me. But, shoo, I am capable on mending my own worth.

Never knew it takes years, but I respect the grief I have been having. This is me and I embrace it.

P.s. wow, it feels so powerful to write these words on an openaccess platform as this blog. Were you thinking that I should've just written this on my personal journal? I don't mind. I can just copy this.